daysofgrace13ben

Well I just got off work and I am in a prozac, zyprexa and depacote and and a bunch of other shit haze I am listening to a cd I have not listened to in some time. Many will know it others may not. It is a Bad Religion cd from 2002 called "The Process of Belief" and the song is probably their "biggest" song...if...
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All my life I have been nothing more than a shot in the dark from an empty gun that no one could fucking here. Ok I am done feeling sorry for myself--I shall go seize the day! Peace to all!

I am off today-that is very good. Got so much to do. Crazy, hectic, insane amount of shit to get done. But I'll see this shit through. No matter fucking what. Well not to much to say on this blog entry so I am fucking done. Got a lot of shit to do-----remember? Peace and so much love to all of you.xoxo!!!!

These past couple months have been incredibly blessed and cursed in one. I quit my job out of nothing but love and serene devotion for my one and only. Couple of weeks later I got a job. I went from comfortable living not even having enough money to live. But I had her-that was all that mattered. Then came the cancer and she got so...
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Well 2 more days and I am off. That is very good for me. Got a whole bunch of shit to get done. A lot. Any way work sucks but that was my choice. And I know it was the right one every though every one thinks I am a fool. I know I did what was right. Yep it was all in love but...
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The greatest sin of our time
is not the few who have destroyed
but the vast majority
who have sat idly by.

M.L.K. Jr

Peace

I have a retarded phone. I got it when I was un-employed and had no money. The phone is completely fucked up. It has one fucking ring tone which is so fucking annoying it makes you want to shoot yourself every time it goes off. 2nd it has no games. I can't take no fucking pictures cos this shitty thing has no camera. I have...
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Yes in my new apartment I am making it into layers.
I'll bet you all i'll have it done by the end of the month.

Peace

Like Elvis, we all die
but we live on' in photos
and paperbacks
if were lucky
were coming back.

Far-"Mother Mary"

For some reason that song haunts the living shit out of me.

I am always freaked by the stuidist things. Awesome fucking song though.
Peace as always my lonely lovelies. For were all the same. For some reason we have such shame.
I'm off...
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New job really sucks-no money-boring-everybody there is pretty much an asshole. Work so hard to get ahead in life and now I am back to being truly poor. I would not hesitate to make the same decision again. It was the right thing to do. It was out of love. It was for her. Save her screw me any day. It took me 30 years-war,...
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September came so sadly said good bye to August and hello to the pain. For in September you died And I fore ever cried. She took your place as a Scorpio in October. I will not let her go. Never letting go though death so fast is always so very slow but do we even know?

Oh Fuck! Stated my new job and really fucking loving it. Well she is gone. Yet I'll move on and forgive with the anger that keeps me warm while she is away. Well I'm going to bed. Very sick. Sick for almost year that I've been this way. My stomach is all fucked and no Dr.'s can find out what is wrong. But my benies...
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