daysofgrace13ben

Happy St. Patrick's Day to everyone!!!! Peace

Finally 2 days off in a row! Finally have enough to buy a digital camera. Should finally be able to put up some pictures! Should buy the camera next week. Don't know what kind to get but I don't want to pay a shitload. Plus at the end of this month I'll get to go to college again and the school will pay for it...
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Wow life has been rough. Job really sucks but hey it is a job. I gotta keep it cos I'm worried I have been missing a lot of work. S o sick in the head. No more days to call out now. I gotta just shut it all off. Be strong.

Well to all peace!

Please someone save me from this awful sound of nothing

Peace

I have not dreamed
since I have not slept
and I have not slept since
I met her

Do not pity the dead
Pity the living
and above all
those who live without love

Oh shit--gotta go to work! Well that's life. Good news is I get paid tomorrow! I really need money. I'm fucking selling everything I have to make ends meet and I start another job next week. Well it was my choice to leave my old job after all and become what I am now. It's all cool though. Time is flying-almost time for those febuary...
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Bord to death. Days so long. Want to sleep. Can't. Break my back for some thing I will never have. Same sad story. It just goes on and on. So long. I'm so wrong. Blink your eyes and I'll be gone.

Peace

As I lay dying
She sits besides me crying
in this rotten bed
we have been lying

Desacrate
this love
once so great
alone we burn in hate

Heaven scent
from ashes so divine
I want it all back
everything that was mine

Swallowing my pride
the day my hero died
fragments of what used to be
drowning in this misery

through pain and sorrow...
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Well I am back to work today. 3 days then I'm off for 4. I'll take that in a heartbeat. As always got a lot to do on those days of -- this machine does not stop for the holidays or for anything cos my my mind goes faster than a bullet and I have to pull through to get to where I need to...
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Well life is starting to look up! For I have forgiven her and everyone else who perfectly orchestrated my death defying fall from grace. For it is over now. I am not dead and I am truly getting the help I need finally. Letting go was so hard but building myself back up will be even harder. They say if I had it all I'd...
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I will prepare. I will strike. I will strike with immense destruction. For I am not dead. I am just the tears of the past years in your head.

To everyone else Love and peace and total serenity!xoxo