Ok. Think I'm done here. Realized just now that the pictures I connect to most on this site are the ones where the eyes just speak a certain something. I realized at that same moment that I'm not going to find that here, except as a way of torturing myself. Nobody is going to look at me that way, and this site reminds me of that every fucking time. Obviously it's unintentional. Models eye-fuck the camera and sometimes it gets captured just the right way.
Whatever. Shut up, me! Something is festering and I'm probably projecting, but the last fucking thing I need is to be looking at unattainable gorgeous, naked women right now. Scads of them, right there on the periphery of something I paid to try to belong to but don't fit with. I guess I don't blend well. I make the mix curdle.
Whatever. Shut up, me! Something is festering and I'm probably projecting, but the last fucking thing I need is to be looking at unattainable gorgeous, naked women right now. Scads of them, right there on the periphery of something I paid to try to belong to but don't fit with. I guess I don't blend well. I make the mix curdle.