daxtron

I played ultimate last night. I probably shouldn't have, but god I miss it so much. I only played four points, and I layed out three times. Twice on my bad side. My shoulder is feeling less than stellar today. Poor decision making. But the fact that I forget about consequences when I'm on the field is the entire reason I play. I've played all kinds of other sports, and besides wrestling, there just aren't any sports that make me feel the same way. I forget the rest of the world. All I can see is that disc. sometimes it even happens on the sidelines. I walk away from conversations I'm having with people so I can communicate with players on the field. It just consumes me.

It also felt great just to see my team mates again. I'm so lucky to have been connected to such great people. I feel really bad that I've avoided them for so long. I don't know why I've been doing that. Yes, it's hard to go and just stand on the sidelines, but I'm completely squandering the opportunity to make deeper connection to people that I share an interest with. Going for drinks with a few of them after the game reminded me of that. It felt so good to be laughing and making other people laugh.

Last night was not good for my body, but so, so good for my soul.