Since my last entry I've been thinking about it a lot. I went to a bar and hung with a bunch of freinds and listened to them say all the same things that you wrote in my last journal. I'm even more sure about it now than yesterday.
I know it seems sudden but this is something I've thought about many times over the last few years, but everytime I've just been like, no, that's not for me. But all of the sudden it seems like it might be for me. The timing feels right. It's time for a change.
There's a lot of reasons why it seems right. Maybe I'm a little depressed right now and maybe I'm looking for a way to escape my problems, but there's more to it than that. I not an impulsive person. I rarely make major decsions without considering them very very carefully. You can be sure that if I do this it will be because I really thinks it's the right thing for me.
If I join I don't want waste my time. I don't want to be in the general infantry. I don't want to be a mechanic. I don't want to do paperwork or gaurd the gate and some stupid military base. I don't want just a job in a green uniform.
If I do it I want to do something that will be a signifigant challenge physically and mentally. I've always admired people who have survived hellish situations and I've always felt that I've had life too easy. Life has been so good to me that I've become lazy and bored. I want a trial by fire. And if I die in the next three years I will die knowing that the first 24 were pretty good, and the last few have been awesome. I've never been afraid of death.
Its only three years. I'll still be me at the end. I'll change, but that's what I want. I'll only be 28 when I get back. If you look at the average life span of 70 years or so, 3 years is just a tiny sliver.
I appreciate you guys suggesting alternatives, but I've thought about those things a lot. None of them apeall to me. I don't really want to go back to school yet. I don't want to get some other crappy job. Midori mentioned the Peace Corps. I've thought about that but all the best jobs there require you to have a bachelors degree.
I haven't made up my mind yet at all. I have tons of questions. I'll go to a recruiter and I'm gonna see what's up.
I know it seems sudden but this is something I've thought about many times over the last few years, but everytime I've just been like, no, that's not for me. But all of the sudden it seems like it might be for me. The timing feels right. It's time for a change.
There's a lot of reasons why it seems right. Maybe I'm a little depressed right now and maybe I'm looking for a way to escape my problems, but there's more to it than that. I not an impulsive person. I rarely make major decsions without considering them very very carefully. You can be sure that if I do this it will be because I really thinks it's the right thing for me.
If I join I don't want waste my time. I don't want to be in the general infantry. I don't want to be a mechanic. I don't want to do paperwork or gaurd the gate and some stupid military base. I don't want just a job in a green uniform.
If I do it I want to do something that will be a signifigant challenge physically and mentally. I've always admired people who have survived hellish situations and I've always felt that I've had life too easy. Life has been so good to me that I've become lazy and bored. I want a trial by fire. And if I die in the next three years I will die knowing that the first 24 were pretty good, and the last few have been awesome. I've never been afraid of death.
Its only three years. I'll still be me at the end. I'll change, but that's what I want. I'll only be 28 when I get back. If you look at the average life span of 70 years or so, 3 years is just a tiny sliver.
I appreciate you guys suggesting alternatives, but I've thought about those things a lot. None of them apeall to me. I don't really want to go back to school yet. I don't want to get some other crappy job. Midori mentioned the Peace Corps. I've thought about that but all the best jobs there require you to have a bachelors degree.
I haven't made up my mind yet at all. I have tons of questions. I'll go to a recruiter and I'm gonna see what's up.
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hey, you may as well join a cult. it'll just as much ruin your life for the next 3 years and get you out of a rut.
I still wouldn't make such a rash decision like this one. Especially the way the world is right now.
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