datura

Hello. I all but disappeared from my cerebral spatterings into my journal here. One knows they are frighteningly busy and occupied when there is no time to look at the SG photosets! For shame! Ah, but I did snag a few minutes today and what a lucky day b/c there is a new Benni set and that just makes for warm thoughts amidst the gloom and fog.
I feel exhausted, so tired it takes too much effort to sit straight. Halloween sneaks up around the corner! Skelton dark orb eyes peeking out from shadows, silently asking, "What are you doing this year?"
Oh but what reply do I have? Shuffle my feet,, cough a couple 'ah-hems' and reply, eyes looking upward as if I'm ignorant of the truth, "Um, well, I am not sure yet."
Ah, but let's be honest, I have no idea! I know, I know, parties up the ass on every block and all that but it gets so old after a while. People tend to trade their mind altering delights for alcohol, and who can really blame them? But I just don't jive with it as well, and I go from feeling entertained, and part of the circle of humanity, to bored and alienated in the same amount of time it takes a race car to reach 60 mph: quickly.
And then there's this problem. This new friend I have: Apathy. Seems Apathy hangs out around me more than I want, in lieu of Enthusiasm, or Melancholy. Apathy is a trip, just drink beers at the kitchen table and never demans my attention, Just sits there and reminds me of the mirror of it in myself.
Well yeah, anything is possible. Maybe I will stumble upon Inspiration and he will be hiding in my closet, and sneak out suddenly and BAM! I have a desire to find something amazing to do.....