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darthvengeant

Pornland, Whoregon

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So, my other rat Nina is in her final phase of life. About a month ago her back left leg quit working right and she developed a mamory tumor on her chest. I took her to the vet and either she has a tumor in her spinal chord interfering with the leg, or her back is out of place....either way the vet cant do much. So, shes on Prednisone and Anti-Biotics and hasn't gotten worse really but now her MYCO is acting up so shes got slight sneezing, coughing, and respiratory problems.

I doubt she'll still be with me this summer.

When Nina is gone I will truly be alone. I have no friends really, no GF...as usual, and have no social life. My rats have been my friends, my kids, my joy. When Zam died back in Oct its was like part of me died and I still have trouble thinking of her and it. I don't know what I'm going to do without Nina. I feel like ill lose my mind. There will be nothing here, just me. Nothing to greet me when I come home, nothing to take care of and have joy from, nothing to lick my face when I'm sleeping and curl up in my blanket to sleep by me....NOTHING period.

I'm 31, I have been alone most of my life. Ive never had luck with getting dates or anything. Haven't really had many friends, when I was younger I had a few but as years have passed they have thinned to pretty much none now. Its just been me and my rats now, and soon it will just be me. No one to talk with, do things with, play with, or anything. Nothing.

I am a very strong person and can take pretty much anything, as I pretty much have all my life. Now after having my rats and them in my life the past 2-3 yrs its going to be hard without them, or anything, around. I treasure everyday I have left with Nina because when her time comes I fear what will be come of ME. I feel like the "Nothing" from "The Neverending Story" has invaded my life and will suck everything into its black depths descending forever with bleak stark endless loneliness.

I will miss you Nina, the piddlepot, you have meant more to me than any human ever could. Humans deserve what they get, animals dont.

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