Changes in philosophy and practice.
Need to face the realization that certain things may not be right for me anymore.
And that I'm not going to have certain things I've wanted. At least not the way I wanted.
I better break out the armor and sharpen my sword,
It's demon fighting time!
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Edited to add;
It's 4:30 in the morning and I just tossed and turned for the last 5+ hours.
I don't know if it's the temperature dropping and bothering my sinuses, the swelling and discomfort in my jaws or the lack of vicodin in my system. Whatever the reason, it's clear that sleep is not to be mine. Didn't sleep too well New Years night, even after drinking. Didn't sleep at all the night before New Years Eve.
What ever the reason, the events, conversations, emotions and my reactions to them, of December (and the crap with my buddies at and after the new years party) are really weighing on me. Some old wounds reopened. I've brought a lot of baggage into 2008. I'm thinking entirely too much. That's never good.
Work was going to suck tomorrow, but now worse with no rest.
I feel really lost right now.
This sucks ass!
I'm going to wash my hair, maybe the hot water will do me good?
I work 2nd shift so it's good for me though I do wish I could go to Holiday club for 80's night on Friday.
thank you. hopefully there will be some more of me in front of a camera at some point.
i kinda wanted to see reactions on whether or not i should do more.
and you should see both! shoot 'em up = for just a fully action packed movie that you and just sit and be fully entertained. plus, great actors.
eastern promises = something a little deeper but you'll be blown away. viggo does a great job in his role.