darkrabbit

Ever hear a song that reminds you of someone you can't be with? Ever hear two in a row? Well, today I heard two in a row while I was going over a design with a couple of customers. The first, Breakfast at Tiffany's, got me a little choked up (she use to sing it for me), that was bad enough. Then what comes next? Love Song... I almost lost it, meanwhile my customers are all cheery and such. I had to wear a fake smile and act cheery while I felt my insides twist up in despair and sadness. Just when my wall of steadfastness and resolve was rebuilding after a bad couple of days, I get this kick to the nuts. I manages to refrain from sinking into despair and go and see Bent with Welntaod and had fun, but the drive home sucked, and now I go to bed all depressed and such... Hopefully, tomorrow when I see Mr Welntaod again, I'll be cheered up enough to not be a total drag when I go see WhosYourLibra's father's band play. God I miss Ashley...

On a side note... On the advice of my Commander. Tomorrow I'll be losing the hair... That's right. Not just short enough to be in regulation, but it's all gonna be chopped down to a high and tight... It'll be the shortest it's been in about 2 years... At least I'll save money on hair stuff ( the stuff I use is like 20 bucks a pop) Ok, bed time. Hopefully my depressed mood will let me sleep and not give me the bad dreams I usually have...