darkness79

You would think i would just get used to it by now. i have tried dating girls from freaking 18 all the way to the same age as me. I am sick of people saying "oh your relationships don't work out cause you go for teenagers" Well guess what asshole, it don;t seem to matter how old they are, how nice i am, how good i treat them. You would think i would just either be single and say fuck it, or just not care. But i do, i do care, maybe i care too damn much.
First real relationship: Same age as me, 4 1/2 years. Status: Dumped
Second real relationship: Two years younger then me, 5 years. Status: We both decided it was better to break up
Third relationship: Three years younger then me, 1 year. Status: x wife.

I have only had dated a total of 8 people, and there was a time span of at least 6 months to a year in between each. Each person i have been with has found some reason to leave me. And if they can't find a reason then they will just dig and dig until they do find a reason then throw it all up in my face. i am just too old to play childish games. And it seems like i have just been wasting years of my life in these last relationships.

The shortest real relationship (by real i mean not being in the third grade,or the stupid school yard games of having a friend say my friends what to date you) i have been in has been about a 4 months. It was long distance so i can understand why it didn't work.

As sad i it is to say this . . . either i am setting myself up to just be hurt, or people just don't care anymore. And sadly it has changed my outlook on a lot of things that have to do with having other people around me. It is almost like now if someone ask me about dating the only answer i have is along these lines "why would you want to date me? Just so you can rip my heart out and stomp on it a few times . . . . no thanks, i'm good" I HATE feeling like i can't even trust people.