darkhelmet

Now I'm not typically prone to sentimentality or painful journeying down memory lane. However the last few days have been filled with thoughts of my ex girlfriend. Not filled with thoughts of getting back together, I've learned that painful lesson, just been reminded of her a lot lately. Been almost 8 months since we broke up or even since we last talked. There is a part of me that thinks about talking to her and then the rest of my brain tells me to stop being a mopey asshole. I don't really want to talk to her. Frankly I'd be perfectly happy not thinking about her at all. I guess it's an idication that A) I'm not happy in my job, which those of you who have been reading my journal are aware of, and B) that I'm missing having someone special in my life. That intimate importance of another human being is definitely something that I'm not expereincing right now. It's funny, in a sad way, that the only woman I know right now that I'd be interested in dating lives on the otherside of the country with her serious girlfriend. Blech. Things aren't really all that bad...my job ends in a month and I'll be headed back to a job that I like with people that I care about. I'm just feeling really blech tonight. Nothing really serious or even all that important. Just feeling lonely...missing spending time with people I care about. Seems like everybody I care about is scattered across the nation. I miss my friends and family. At least I have my random SG friends.

Hope everyone is doing well.

DH