it's close to time where paul is going to return , and i keep crying , casue i wish he was already home, i talk so funny with the piercing on and i feel like i talk like a special person. i am not sure i am going to keep it, i mean now i know how it feels to get it done, and it wasn't that bad, but i don't know its annouying and i want to eat again. i got some soup but it still was hard to eat it, and i am not sure i even cooked it right it was not really soup, but it was good, dammit man i miss paul , i know i know he will be back i just miss him. 