darkartist81

This weekend was pretty decent. At first I thought that nothing would happen, and on the day that I had buried my mother soo long ago I paced the floors. October 29th had always been hard for me, no matter where I was. But usually I was able to drink it off or put everything into my girlfriend at the time..

But not this time. I had no such thing to cheer me up, so I resigned myself to moping. Until my sister called...

She said that she was taking Mom out to see a movie and would take me along to see whatever I wanted. Happily, I got dressed in my creepiest garb and boots, and went on my journey to see Saw. Which my friend KOSMO said kicked ass... The trailers on TV had been a big selling point as well as an article I read in Fangoria.

So, I left... A smile on my face that was not there moments earlier...

But alas, that smile melted away when I was dropped off at the theater. The movie was sold out until the last showing. Needless to say I was pissed. I had to pick another movie to watch, and the only ones that were playing that I cared to see was Team America and The Grudge. So, I saw the Grudge.

Surprisingly, the movie was pretty cool. For someone who had actually lived in Japan, I saw a lot of things I recognized. Also, the imagery in that film just sticks with you and won't let you sleep for quite a bit.

So that was Friday. Saturday I did nothing but watch Jason movies and Zombie films...

Today, I lost my mind. My parents were talking about mowing the yard, and how I never want to do it. I replied that I do enough, and served my time doing that... Which erupted into a full blown argument..

It was after about 20 minutes of this before I was screamed outside and started to lose it.. I puched my car and threw things around like a crazy person. Finally my Mom came back outside to try and calm me down. It was here that I finally told her why I was put on medication and forced to see a Psychiatist while I was in the Navy...

I told her that I had snapped while crushing cans with an axe.... and threatened a co-worker with it. Scared, the guy told the chain of command and in mere minutes I was sitting in an office telling them how long I had been like this. I was diagnosed with Manic Depressive Disorder, yet was allowed to finish out my tour of service...

She told me that she would help me get to college if only I went to the VA and got some more medication. I nodded, and wiped away the tears.. I never mean to get like I do, so at least you guys understand why I am so down all the
time.. My low swings are longer than my up swings..

So, that was my weekend. On Halloween, instead of donning a mask, I took off one and showed my true colors... I just hope that no one thinks I'm crazy now....

Happy Halloween everybody... Hope you had fun!
Josh