darkangelazrael

Well, it looks as though I am completely without luck in the ways of love. I have layed it all on the line with Sara and well, she has offered nothing in return. I swear I can tell she likes me but I think she may be very afraid. The sad thing is, if she does really really like me, that is of no comfort. If she lives by her fear, then I will continue to hurt like this for some time. She has been refusing to call me the last couple of days. I have no idea what is going on in her mind and I am going mad.

It's been a long time since I have fallen like this. Dare I even voice to myself the fact that I have completely fallen in love with her? That's how it is right? If you even think let alone believe you have fallen in love then it really is love? God I'm dying here. She commands everything I am. Yet she has no idea she does and probably wouldn't know what to command if she did know. The sun only shines so that I might see her face. Then the moon comes out and brings me utter desolation.I have never felt so alone. I just want to cry and cry till I vomit everywhere. But I can't even do that. It's as though all the bones have left my body. I just want to fall limp to the ground and scream. FUCK!!!! Does anyone know some kind of remedy for this? I would be very appreciative. God I burn and burn for her yet it fails to consume me. I just wish it would. Thanks so much for reading this everyone. Take care and have a good upcoming weekend.