darkangelazrael

So, I was out the last night with the woman that my heart is breaking for, and I had left my phone at home without thinking. Turns out that while I was having a lot of fun with the woman I could never be with a friend of mine killed herself. She called my phone like three times. I feel like a fucking asshole. All there is now is pain. Pain that is with me all the time like a living thing. I had to leave work early cause i just lost it. I don't want to go in this morning either but i am going to. I just wish i could sleep for like a week straight.