I was walking earlier
It felt as though winter had finally given up its fight
There were clouds in the sky but they were traveling fast
Not wanting to sit too long in one place
They are gone now
Like so many others they simply drifted away
Is it too much to try to hold on
Some sort of crime to rail against this change
I know why this must continue on without me
I know I am but a single entry in a secret manifest
It is the secret you kept
The one you told to people when the time was right
The one you swore you left behind the closed bathroom door of your blood mother's house
One must understand that they can NOT save anyone
Not a single solitary person
You can only hope to be the one around and available
When that person realizes that only they can save themselves
How often does that ever happen............
There is no guilt
Nor shame
Only a sweet pain
In realizing she will never feel cold again
It felt as though winter had finally given up its fight
There were clouds in the sky but they were traveling fast
Not wanting to sit too long in one place
They are gone now
Like so many others they simply drifted away
Is it too much to try to hold on
Some sort of crime to rail against this change
I know why this must continue on without me
I know I am but a single entry in a secret manifest
It is the secret you kept
The one you told to people when the time was right
The one you swore you left behind the closed bathroom door of your blood mother's house
One must understand that they can NOT save anyone
Not a single solitary person
You can only hope to be the one around and available
When that person realizes that only they can save themselves
How often does that ever happen............
There is no guilt
Nor shame
Only a sweet pain
In realizing she will never feel cold again