darkangelazrael

I wish to be underneath an angry and boiling sky.
I want to feel its wrath, with big drops of rain that tend to fall with a strange intent.
I want to be frightened in that good way
And Loved.
It seems as though I have always known her.
Since the day I was born I carried my love for her inside me.
To know her has brought me as close to God as i fear i will ever be.
Her wishes and needs are my only desire to fulfill.
My only wish...........That she needed me.

So. just heard from her this morning. She is now engaged to her sweetheart. I feel like everything has come to some sort of strange end that leaves me in limbo. Suck and unable to move on. unable to regress. Just completely and impotently unable to do a damn thing but sit here and want to cry but be unable to even do that. I feel so completely lost right now. ?I have no idea what to do and sadly no one to turn to. It appears my closest confidants are here in the virtual realm of cyberspace. Thanks for listening on and taking the slightest interest. Take care everyone and have a great week!