darkangelazrael

Well, let's see. I just had to go to Chicago, not for fun, but to bury my ex with her father. He died 4 years ago and she has no one left in her life but myself and Lisa. I ended up being the executor of her estate. I had to make sure she got from N.C. to Chicago. It's been rough. I feel very much like an ass. I feel as though I should not have to deal with this stuff until I am like 70 or 80 and have been happily married for some time. I guess I am mad and sad at the same time. She broke it off with me 4 years ago when I went to AZ to finish school. Then there is the ever elusive Sara. I am dead in love with her. But I fear that is never going to happen. They cut my hours at work by one third. I feel like I am a rabid rodent stuck in a VERY small cage. I need to reevaluate many things I fear, and I have never been good at that. Anyhow, I just feel I am loosing it. Thanks for asking though, it helps spilling my dirty little guts.

SINcerely, Ron.