darkangelazrael

I have no idea what's going on. I feel lost. Like I'm living in limbo. I fucking hurt EVERY night. I want it to end and yet I don't want it to end. I haven't a clue what to do or where to turn. I can't turn to the person I love. She has someone else. And unlike me, he has the privilege of kissing her. What's more, he has her kissing him back. I have to pull teeth just to get time with her. She has told me that she is too afraid to face choosing to be with me or not or what to do in general. That doesn't make it any less hurtful. I have no idea why I had to fall in love with this woman. I know we don't have control over those types of things but FUCK the God or Gods that be for pulling this kinda shit!! Have a great week everyone.

Sincerely, Ron.