hmmm Like I had said I know that this is not going to be easy. Especially since I Love this woman so much. Sara needs her time to be dumb and fuck around and figure things out in herself. I have afforded her the time she so wants right now. I know that she has been dating a guy named Joe that I work with....
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Well, she knows now!!! I LOVE SARA!! I feel as though I have loved her my whole life. It's the weirdest thing. We still don't like, know each other intimately or a whole lot about each other, but she told me that it's as if we have known one another like in a past life like we were always together. It really brings joy to...
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awryx:
ooo love. so scary . lol.
miss ya too.
im back and in school.
gah. the life.
miss ya too.
im back and in school.
gah. the life.
cain:
Awww cool. I'm glad for you and Sara. Thanks for the words of wisdom. College kinda blows in that way that I've gotta like, face reality and shit. And grow up...what the hell? I'm nine-fucking-teen. Anyway....good luck with ya lady friend.
OK. So things don't seem as bad right now. I still feel as though I am living for everyone else at the moment, but things with Sara are looking up. Just little signs you know, like she saw the addict soundtrack for fooly cooly the other day and had to buy it for me. I told her she didn't have to but she knows my...
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curiosity:
It didn't go at all. He never called me. Still, that's probably the most romantic thing that has ever happened to me.
Curi.
Curi.
awryx:
thanks u! i will tell u about it.
be well!
be well!
Well, I am here listening to the new Fear Factory, Which is kick ass by the way. And I am thinking I need to get out of town again. I just want to Fucking go. Anywhere. Sara Needs her time to do the stupid things she needs to do and have time after her last relationship. I have promised her this time and now I...
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awryx:
u know i missed ya as well.
and it was great talking to u again.
so until our next discussion, take care
be well too!
and it was great talking to u again.
so until our next discussion, take care
be well too!
awryx:
awww thank you.
i hope u have a great week too
im quite fond of that trip to cali.
and thank u again haha
i hope u have a great week too
im quite fond of that trip to cali.
and thank u again haha
OK, there is not a whole lot goin on. Sara has started calling and we talked a good two hours the other day. She says she has written me some stuff, which thuroughly intrigues me. I hope it is something good. I just want to hold her endlessly. We are supposed to go out for breakfast this morning and then to a movie. Let's hope...
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broken_star_:
Thanks for all the comments hun.
I've been away with friends for a week so that made me feel a little better.
I hope you're doing well also x
I've been away with friends for a week so that made me feel a little better.
I hope you're doing well also x
darlingnikky:
so did ya guys end up going to breakfast?
Well, it looks as though I am completely without luck in the ways of love. I have layed it all on the line with Sara and well, she has offered nothing in return. I swear I can tell she likes me but I think she may be very afraid. The sad thing is, if she does really really like me, that is of no comfort....
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bracket:
there aint no cure for love...... *singing*
actually,there is.
time heals everything,trust me =)
actually,there is.
time heals everything,trust me =)
bracket:
i always say fight for the one that you love-til the point it makes you insian,thats a good sign to let it go and move on
Holy shit! OK I just gave a copy of Sara's song to Sara. She is gonna read it and call me. She couldn't really read it in front of the company we had but it was great to see her tonight. April talked me into showing the song to her so i hope for April's sake that it does the trick. We stood out in...
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darlingnikky:
Good luck
awryx:
aw dont worry
and great luck with sara and the sara song.
let me know how it goes. take care!
and great luck with sara and the sara song.
let me know how it goes. take care!
So, no movies with Sara today. Not even a fucking call or anything. She made me promise to call her last night and i did TWICE but she didn't answere or erase any messages so i couldn't leave one. I wish I could say she hadn'e ereased them because she loves the sound of my voice but i feel it is something more ominous. I...
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awryx:
gluck!!!
Things are going slowly but going well i think with Sara. The fact that things are moving slowly gives me hope that it will be something special that lasts a while. No kissing yet. Lots of flirting and laughing. I think I may have a fighting chance lol. We'll see. She is supposed to go see a flick with me tomorrow. Everyone wish me luck...
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HEARTBROKEN
Languish
Well I know who you're with tonight
And I pray that he's only a friend
Cause I'm left in the dark and I....
I can't see the light at the end
Oh you know how I feel
Yes I know that it's real
I'm left writhing in anguish
I don't know what you think
And I'm starting to sink
Will I ever escape this...
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Well I know who you're with tonight
And I pray that he's only a friend
Cause I'm left in the dark and I....
I can't see the light at the end
Oh you know how I feel
Yes I know that it's real
I'm left writhing in anguish
I don't know what you think
And I'm starting to sink
Will I ever escape this...
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awryx:
i will miss u too
have a good one while im away.. take care and be well. *HUGS* and thank you
have a good one while im away.. take care and be well. *HUGS* and thank you
darlingnikky:
I know... i still need to get the cd's lol
So what have you been up to?
So what have you been up to?
OK. I have learned a few things and now i feel like more of an ass. But now that i know i can make changes. It seems Sara had her last boyfriend for 2 years. They broke up about 3 months ago. Which to me could be enough OR not enough time. It's all for her to decide. Apparently her ex still calls her and...
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darkangelazrael:
P.S. I hope I can get my hands on this guy at some point in the future. I am sure she would not approve so I would have to not say why I am kicking his ass when I do it. Or maybe she would approve and I can call him a little piece of shit that likes to belittle women to make himself feel like more of a man and then just rip his pride from him in public. LOL that puts a smile on my face.
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[Edited on Aug 06, 2005 6:05PM]
awryx:
that's some dilemma.
hope things go well!
hope things go well!
and i miss ya too.
just been exhausted and ... busy.
be well and thank you for being around to talk to. later days
no you're not.
sometimes it is so amazing to lose yourself in this sweet sweet feeling.....you should wish for it to never end,dont wish you can control it.
the fact that you cant control it makes it 10 times better