When I first decided I wanted to model, around the time I was 13, I was scared. Honestly, truly, scared. I've never been a thin girl, and when I thought model the Victoria's Secret Angels came to my mind. Those beautiful thin girls, strutting down the runway, restricting what they eat, working out constantly, wearing angel wings.
I knew I could never be that. Not in a bad way, exactly, but in an accepting way. I thought that meant that I could never really model - but when I was 16 I saw a flier for the Suicide Girls. Girls of all different shapes, colors, with tattoos and piercings. I could be one of those girls, I thought.
When I turned 18 I did my first boudoir shoot. It was beautiful, and I'm still incredibly proud of it. But I was urged to really consider if this is what I wanted. I decided at that age, I wasn't ready to devote the time to modeling. I'm still happy with my decision - at 21, though, I feel like it's the perfect time for me.
Modeling itself has helped my body confidence. I've never felt more in love with my body, or happier with my life.
SG has changed my life for the better. Because of it, I started modeling, began to grow and love myself and my body, all of my curves and flaws, and the female environment is so supportive, so loving. I've only ever felt as at home with my rugby team.
I hope to turn pink someday. I'm so proud to be a Hopeful.
