darcie

so i would really love to do another photoshoot for suicide girls...but every photographer i come across is way creepy lol who knows of any......lol i guess i can try and get a hold of my old photographer she was pretty chill...im getting more comfortable with photoshoots so lets see what i can come up woth.......

just kidding about the whole girl on girl shoot.....im too busy with work trying to make money and shit to get a photoset up...and i cant find a photographer...maybe one day you will see some more of me..who knows

so i think i wanna do a girl on girl photoset

Well i havent been on this site in a while..i have actually been doing a lot of modeling i think im so ready for my next SG shoot...i def will go Pink!


that is if i get another photoshoot lol

Well we got the results from my moms surgery today......




and its Cancer......





its hard to stay positive but thats what i gotta do.
Its hard for me to understand completely whats going on...i dont get how there is no cure for it...i seem to think whats the point if there is no cure.....but if treatment prolong my moms life for then let it be.

I wish i could truly feel happy. I mean at times i felt happiness...but i wanna know what its like to truly be happy...all i do is hide how i really feel with a fake smile.

My friends will tell you im the happiest person they know.....what can i say im a good actress.


i just wanna know what its like to really smile







































wow...
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well i just got back from the hospital. My mom is doing okay. But the doctor said its a 50 50 chance the cancer came back but we wont know anything till early next week. so wish us the best.

so today is gonna be an intense day for me. My om goes into surgery...her cancer came back.



Wish her the best.



I have to stay at the hospital till late tonight and i have to be up at 3 am tomorrow for work


so wish me luck on surviving a long day at work lol




ill let everyone know how it goes.


Lets hope...
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So i thought being an adult would be...well more fun...wow was i wrong... it kinda sucks not having parents to pay for anything anymore.

Well im getting by on thread...How fun!



NOT!



I wanna turn pink already...money would be nice lol

So falling in love is prolly the worst thing ever. For Valentines Day i worte a long ass "love" letter to the boy i fell in love with a year ago..i poured my heart and soul into the relationship we had befor ei moved and into the letter i stayed up all night writing. And the respnce i get back from him is...

"I have...
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so today is Valentines Day..Whoopie! In 20 years i have never had a Valentine..and lets see im 20 years old lol. Now i remember why i dislike this holiday so much. I was invited to a dinner party but ill be the only girl with 2 couples of gay guys.....hmmm doesnt sound too interesting


but there will be alcohol haha