darbly

So I need to email my therapist to make an appointment because my anxiety is totally out of control right now I'm shaking like crazy, my heart is racing and I don't know why. I would call her but that would just make things worse. I'm never been good on the phone I shake even harder and then my voice gets so shaky I can't even talk. Don't know why this is ether I can only talk to people I know really well on the phone and not have this happen. That's why I stay away from jobs where I have to answer phones. Normally I would go and buy anything with Dextromethorphan in it to calm me down. But I'm all out and it's too late to go out and get anything. I hate that it come to self medicating myself to it can't be good for me ether. I might try to draw or work on my painting here in a few to try to clam myself. If I don't get clam down I'll probably be up all night and I need my sleep for my drive down to LA tomorrow. I really need to get out of my head for a while.

qoute on my mind: "We have just gotten a wake-up call from the Nintendo Generation." -Cereal Killer, Hackers