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My anxiety is at it's zenith tonight. I just wish there was a reason for it...maybe I could do something about it.

I don't know what's worse: depression or anxiety. Actually anxiety is worse. At least when I'm depressed, I don't feel like throwing up.

Work sucks, life sucks, everything sucks. I can't enjoy anything in this state of mind. Sometimes I hate being me, but then I think: "it could be worse...I could be Leonardo DeCaprio". In that case, work wouldn't suck, my life wouldn't suck (because I'd be rich), but I would suck.

I don't hate myself...I just wish I didn't have so many issues. I am not a toilet. I will not become one by swallowing 6 different pills at different times a day, just to feel "normal". One pill for depression, one pill for anxiety, one more to counteract the various side effects of the first two, and another to counteract side effects of the pill that counteracts side effects...the shit never ends.

I see I'm rambling, so I'm just going to shut the fuck up now.