Healing?

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I’ve been on a wild ride lately. Highs lows and in between. Turning 50, watching my first nephew get married, grieving the loss of some friends from premature death. My poor boy is struggling with social anxiety again. All three of us in therapy individually now. I realize now a big problem i’ve had, that i share with max. I took a new job in 2017. And the whole time? I think my new boss didn’t really want me. He hired me and he gave me some roles. But it might be better for him personally if i don’t succeed at my goals. I have had 10 bosses prior and they have always supported me. Not this one.

With max? He lost trust in his homeroom teacher. We both are at all time lows in confidence. Approval seekers whose most important figures abandoned us. I better learn how to stop seeking approval. And then teach him how.

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dansiego3:
@thaecos @felicity thanks ladies.  @thaecos there is definitely a problem between my boss and myself.  But he’s done nothing but disrespect me and fail to support me all 20 mos i’ve been there.  He made up an interesting story to put me in a very weak position.  It is hard not to take it personally, meaning every boss i’ve ever had liked and supported me at least a little in my role.  This guy is just so insecure and afraid for his own position, i am dangerous to him and he is always in defensive communication mode.  I’ve been tolerating the behavior for too long.  I can keep doing what i’m doing and just report to someone else.  The president, who also feels threatened by my presence?  He might be open to this idea.  Him and i meet next week.  So i can start looking for a new job.  It will take time to figure out what i might want to do next.  I still love this company, and i make excuses for the leaders all the time.  All people have both strengths and weaknesses.  They just don’t want help from me to correct their business problems.  But we are actually aligned for the very first time on one point.  They do want me doing what i’m doing.  They just don’t want to give me credit for my achievements.
dansiego3:
I just decided i’d rather be happy than right.  No one is right all the time.

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