dannydmc

Well, I just got back from camping today with my ex. I'm still trying to do the entire 'friends' thing with moderate success. We had only been going out for a month or so, after all, so I can't claim that we were terribly in love when it ended, but its still tough. I find that I'm still pretty infactuated with her for what ever reason, and still can't help shake the feeling that she's almsot everything I look for. Damn!

To make matters worse, I have been a horny bastard lately. Things never got that far with her in the past; it was just some kissing and cuddling on the couch, but now even thats gone and I'm really hurting for it. Its like an itch that, no matter what you do, you can't scratch. Its on my mind constantly and I wish that it would either go away, or that I could just get laid so that it will go away for a while.

Anyway, the camping trip itself went very well. We went over to Washburn, WI to where my family used to go when I was younger. Bummed around town, bought some books, and went to the Big Top Chitachqua(sp?). It was a lot of fun; first time I'd been in the area in a long time. I don't really like to go camping by myself usually; and most of my friends wouldn't enjoy that sort of thing, I'm afraid.

On a final note, I've been feeling really lonely lately. The weird thing is is that I have more friedns to hang around with now than I have in a while. I've never been a person who has a large number of people; so having about 6 people who I can call up on various nights is actually really good for me. Still, even when I'm with them, I've just been feeling a bit alone and dejected lately. I don't really express myself well sometimes, and I have real trouble talking about 'important' things with me; I'm more likely to just crack a joke or something. grrr

Ok, this time I really AM leaving Enjoy these lyrics from Flogging Molly

"I'm ugly and you know it/but you think that I'm a poet/so I search around for words and feelings that will get me where I'm going"

and the best Pogues lyric ever

"At the time I was working for a landlord/and he was the meanest bastard that you had ever seen/and to lose even a penny would grieve him awfully sore/and he was a miserable bollox and a bitche's bastard's whore"