Well, its over between me and the girl I've been seeing. I was finally able to talk to her the other day and got everything straightened out between us. Sadly, it wasn't quiet in my favor, but at least we both talked and there were no more misunderstandings.
She told me that, the more she thought about it, she wasn't over her old boyfriend after all and that she really couldn't be in a relationship now(which is what I was interested in). I can understand; she had been dating the other man for several years before she got together with me a month or so after they split up. To be honest, I had always been suprised that she seemed as receptive to my advances as she had been.
There really aren't all that many hard feelings. I was hurt, and I still am I suppose(she really was almost everything I look for in a girl) but I'll get over it in time. I actually feel more confident about myself now than I have in a long time; and the two of us are still going to try to go the friends route. We'll see how well that later points works out.
The worst thing about it all though is that I'm.....you know, this is Suicide Girls so I don't think I have to use a euphinism. I'm damn horny and it sucks! Things never got that far between us sxually; just some kissing and cuddling, but it definatly re-awoke my sexual side. Unfortunatly I have no release for it what so ever; its nothing more than an itch that I can't scratch no matter how hard I try. Its really beginning to get to me *sighs*
Oh well, I'll get over that as well, I'm sure.
On a last note, I might post a set of my own to SUicideboys or Big Cuddly Boys later in this week if everything goes well and my photographer agrees to do it. I might as well get it done so that I don't chicken out!
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lollypopsnaggler:
haha its cool. I was like uh ok.
niobe:
Very cool!!! Have fun camping.