Well it has been about three months since I've been on this site. Alaska is going well. My students hate my guts, mind you, and it often seems as if I'm spinning my wheels; but at least I have a job, am making money and am trying to do something worth a damn in the world. Who can ask for anything more than that?
Well, a girl friend would be nice. I'm a bit bummed as I just found out that another teacher, who I thought was rather interesting, is dating someone. Figures. I'm really getting to the point where I think that I'm never going to find anyone. I know I shouldn't sound so down about something which is in the long run rather minor. But its just another case of this sort of thing happening. My success to failture ratio is about 3-367 at this point and its bumming me out. Add to that the stress of teaching, it would be nice to know there is someone out there is gives a damn and can see where I'm coming from.
I'm starting to worry that I've been a loner for so long that i don't know how to actually get along with others in a close relationship. It reminds me of something my Dad once said about we McCollums. "You know, we're too noncomformist for the conformists, and to conformists for the nonconformists. We stand alone, always have and always will". We are not a people who get along with others well it seems.
Also I'be picked up smoking, which is stupid, and am growing my hair out which I'm actually starting to like. oddly enough my Mother, on the phone, threw a fit about that. The reason soon became clear; she hates men with long hair, and my Dad has now vowed to not cut his hair until _I_ do. There for, she's got the two men in her life sporting some lovel locks and can't stand it. Wooo!