dannosaur

I've been a bit distracted lately.
Learning to cope.
Quitting the alcohol, for now at least. I'm sick and tired of the emotional roller-coaster. I'm never going to get over this if I stay numb.

I had to sever a relationship or two - made some new friends in the process. This is a good thing. If the old friends truly care, they'll come to me. I'm sick of the one-sided bullshit. I'm not going to quit putting forth effort for those who deserve it (especially some new friends that I want to keep!), but frankly it's time for some reciprocity from a few of the self-serving narcissists that I, for some reason, keep associating with.

I'll keep trucking. Step one is a healthier lifestyle. Nothing wrong with my old habits (in moderation) - I just don't need them right now. They're counter-productive. Grabbing the booze every time I felt anxious or upset was really destroying my will to live, as well as pissing off everyone around me. Plus, my liver is tired - I can just feel it.

One day at a time.