danipoo

Holy crap, I am stressed the fuck out. I'm in the final weeks of prepping for my move back to Florida from Germany and I feel like I am being pulled into a thousand directions at once. I know that 90% of what I am feeling is perceived and not actual stress, but that knowledge is not helping me cope. I've been waking up with a start most nights, sometimes in a terror, because of all the lists I keep making in my head. Also, the inevitable lifestyle changes that will occur with my move has me trembling and not in a good way. I keep thinking that some important detail will be forgotten sending the whole moving process into a downward spiral of failure. I'm somewhat of a control freak, so leaving responsiblity in the hands of others out of necessity goes against my entire state of mind.
I keep telling myself that I need to just fucking relax. I'm moving back to the US, about 1 hour away from home. I already have a great support structure of friends and family in the area. I won't have to worry about learning about a new location; it's home and I know it like the back of my hand. It's just the whole process of settling into a new house and learning the ins and outs of a new shop and new base that has my head spinning.
I've got the scene from Airplane: The Movie going through my head where the female passenger is having a hysterical fit and all the passengers are taking turns smacking the shit out of her. Maybe that's what I need.