daniellered820

Where do I start.

So recently this new self confidence came out of no where I feel it has to do with alot.

Been thinking and reflecting. Writing and reading.

Finally come to terms with starting the recovery process from a very unhealthy habit.



This was something that was going on for 4 almost 5 years.

Change was necessary for myself to become better.

Made mistakes and not the wisest choices generally speaking.



This self destructive habit controlled me for so long that when I'd look in the mirror I could barely recognize myself. The reason I did this because I felt I had no control over certain things in my life and this was one way to control something when everything was going bad.



If I kept up with it would have had some serious effects on my health not that is already has taken it's toll. It's not right to let my anxiety and depression control my life I'm working on that too.

When I would feel shitty I would take it out on others and it wasn't right and I'm sorry....

Also when I'd drink all those feelings where multiplied by 10x.

I usually was like that only by myself.

So I'm taking the steps to make myself better each day.



I can only fix myself .



I've let the past be the past.

Bringing in 2011 early seems to be worth it.

I hope the one's I've hurt can forgive me with time.