dango

What the fuck is going on??
My dad was a dead beat and I grew up without a dad. My two uncles were my father figures.
Two weeks ago one of them died from bone cancer and today my brother called to let me know my cousin (my other uncles daughter) killed herself today.
I am sooo sad and so mad right now. That kid was a great kid but was adopted and had her probs steming from her first mom. That girl had everything though and my uncle is one of just 6 men that were the most perfect men in my eyes. You couldnt ask for a better Dad. I dont get it. I know she was extremely emotional but what the hell is up? Ive had alot of friends unfortunately pass away and now a half dozen relatives and every time I never get it. I try to numb myself but it only gets me so far. I guess you could say what little faith in god I had was shattered when my sisters baby was injured and deformed from it. If there is a god fuck that bastard!!!!