dane_valek

I'm coming to the realization that I am clinging to the past. I'm not sure if it's because I don't want to change (which I am pretty sure is untrue) or because I just have a hard time thinking something is through. I think it's hard not to fall into the routine of having something there, and when we realize that it's gone it's harder to let go. I have no problem with change. I welcome change whenever I can, but change is startling no matter how much you like it. It's always uncomfortable, and I think that's why we cling to things that once were so rigidly. Our past can too easily become our security blanket. It's there to protect us from the things we fear, but a crutch that holds us back from our full potential.

Henry Rollins talks about letting go of things in his stand-up CD. He talks about letting some of his "punk" principles go because he realizes that they are valid to a point, and bullshit beyond that. I think that is finally starting to sink in. There are principles I stand by that I am steadfast on, and that I have accepted as principles that may drive other people (especially Loves) away. At one point, I really want to find someone who agrees with my "logic" and at another point I know that my logic will be a barricade that always makes me find another route. I'd like to think that I am a strong enough person alone to cling to things that are the very fabric of my morals, but I have to wonder where a more open-minded approach might lead.


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Then again, I might be going crazy. I think I need to write some music.