Sunday Jan 04, 2004

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As a special treat to anyone unfortunate enough to click on this I've chosen to make a face that will make me look as mortified to see you as you will be to see me.

The things I can do to my face should be illegal.
britbritbaby:
Not unfortunate, just mortified! Just kidding!

Sunday Jan 04, 2004

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I'm looking for the perfect sad song. A few are close, one by Elliot Smith in particular, another by the Eels, but I feel like there's something out there that's somehow more to the point.

If I don't find it, I may have to write my own out of frustration. How close can you get to the pain before it swallows you whole?

Thursday Dec 04, 2003

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So i disconnected this account about a year ago. I come back and look my profile and find that damn near everything is the same, even down to the punk girl who peripherally acknowledges my existence.

Though many things have changed in the real world, the profile reflects the notion that it's all the same old shit with different names.

Comforting......
damonsellars:
The comments left by some people on the SuicideGirl picture sets unnerve me. Even though this website is supposed to be so alternative and free spirited and cool, occasionally the people on it still come off like those sleazy guys at a strip club who make well meaning but creepy comments at the strippers.

I may be an amoral, lecherous pervert, but there's something to be said for being respectful.

Friday Feb 21, 2003

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I was bored and stressed today. So I chose to take a sight seeing tour through the members of SuicideGirls. I skipped through the friends list of a bunch of random people, using this weird daisy chain of association to get to totally unrelated people.

I stopped for a long time on the journal entries for daze. Something about the guy's outlook was strangely fascinating....
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Friday Feb 21, 2003

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Good news today. I got a response from the person at the National Writers Association. We met at Village Inn for coffee so we could discuss the manuscript I sent her.

She came in a few minutes late, came over to my table, and set down the 450 page manuscript with a loud thunk. Our conversation involved the changes that needed to be made. I...
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aoife:
gee, thanks I had no IDEA that singers didn't always write about exactly what's going on in their lives.

ok. sarcasm aside, what I meant was in that song he sounds utterly destroyed, and that he's saying it as a defense, like people often do.

If you hate CO so much, why are you still here?

Friday Feb 21, 2003

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Good news today. I got a response from the person at the National Writers Association. We met at Village Inn for coffee so we could discuss the manuscript I sent her.

She came in a few minutes late, came over to my table, and set down the 450 page manuscript with a loud thunk. Our conversation involved the changes that needed to be made. I...
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Monday Jan 20, 2003

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There are moments when I realize I'm slightly different.

One of those moments happened today at work. I was sitting at my desk, staring blankly at the screen, trying not to think about the dozens of emails waiting in my inbox.

So I look to the side of my desk where a popcorn ball with a pen stabbed in it sits. When a company passed...
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lenore:
Where's the mousie!!?! wink

Sunday Jan 19, 2003

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After going through the novel about 4 times in the past several months, and accepting multiple sets of criticism, I mailed out a completed manuscript yesterday. Four hundred and fifty four pages is a hell of a lot to mail out, but it's on it's merry way to a contact I know who can hopefully get an agent.

More than anything, I'm just hoping it...
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earplug6947:
hot damn!
go YOU!

Friday Jan 17, 2003

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My car won't start.

It's not the battery, it's not the alternator. That is the extent of my knowledge, since both have broke in the past. So my crappy old van isn't going anywhere until I find someone who can figure it out. My vehicle is now one big puzzle lying in a marked space. YAY.

Strangely, i'm not that upset about it. I've been...
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newlyweds:
edit it again

Wednesday Jan 08, 2003

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It's sometimes annoying to learn new things about myself. For starters, I've discovered that my lifetime bout of insomnia was in a way a form of self medication for severe tension.

After two nights of restful sleep, I find myself incredibly irritable at having to listen to my roommate and his girlfriend crunch incredibly loud Taco Bell meals while I'm trying to watch Monster's Ball...
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