damien

So I had the worst nightmares last night like ALL night and I don't know what to think about it. See I grew up in California where tornadoes were non existent however I used to have nightmares about them all the time, it was so bad to the point that I would look behind my back to see if one was coming even though I knew it wasn't, I used to look around and think to myself "If a tornado came, where would I hide" seems strange that I would be so tormented and so scared of something that would pretty much never happen in San Diego right?? These nightmares went on and on my whole life up until a couple of years ago, then the finally went away.

Someone body once told me I have an issue with control not so much wanting to control others but being afraid when things around me are chaotic, and that is what a tornado signifies in dreams.

So here is the thing, they have retuned just recently, now there could be two reasons for this, either it is because I have moved to the lovely state of Oklahoma where tornadoes are MUCH more frequent than they are in California so I'm fucking scared shitless and so it is manifesting in my dreams OR I have recently started going through something, that torments my thoughts everyday, and I don't know what t do about it. All I know is these nightmares keep getting worse and worse and I don't know what I can do to make them stop. I am so tired today because I didn't get any sleep.