daleyy

Been slightly lost lately, not sure why. Wait yes i do know why but its all stuff i need to work out my slef. Going crazy with all the people in my house. I love the kids so much they are my heart and soul but good god are they getting on my nerves. I feel bad cause i feel this way what to do? Was up at my aunts house last weekend and well had a breakdown but most of you already probably heard about that. I feel like my whole world id turning again and I do not like it.
Had palns to go see a movie with friends tonight but thats not happing now cause of my mother. Been fighting with the family alot lately cause apperantly I am selfish and dont care about them, which is not true at all. This is why i am selfish:
Didnt fly out on Thanksgiving
not being happy about haveing to pick everyone up at Christmas
Not seeing my nephew yet (like i have control over that)
Not calling them every damn day (you know what, you can call me to fuckers)
pretty much not going to there every freaking need
Not asking yet what they want for Christmas (wtf is this one about how does this make me selfish)
and theres more that i dont want to go into!

Theres some things in my life right now that I fell sure about but not so sure all at the same time, and no one can help me with these things, although i wish they could.
gah my brain is on overload i cant even think enough to write this damn thing.
so in that case i am going to leave this the way it is for now!!

take care everyone


sorry if i have seemed off latley