i havent been around for a few days.. i have been in a very sad state and am willling to admit it to anyone. I had to send my son to my mother, because my life has gone to hell and the place in wich i am living isn't safe for him.. i hate that the world has gone to hell and that I can't get one night of sleep because someoen is always shooting someone else and it always happens on my street in the complex.. what the fuck. for any of you who have children you know how hard and how depressing it is to be without them. my heart is shattered and there isn't a damn thing I can do about it. I finally found someone special enough to share my head heart and bed with and for some God awful reason I seem to be makeing every wrong choice to push him away. the world scares me and i scare myself.. am I crazy? no, im just and inperfect being just like the rest of the world. thanx for reading my crap. ~Sapphire 