daisy

I am an idiot.

I get let down, and declare that next time i shall be wiser, and not get hurt. And then next time comes. And i get let down, again.

I got stood up tonight.

So far this being single lark fucking blows.

I cried. I'm crying now, and all i want is a cuddle. Somebody please give me a hug.

*I am even more of an idiot than previously thought. I need to learn to stop and think before i open my mouth, or type as the case may be. I was under the impression that people here weren;t hugely aware of suicidegirls. Turns out i was wrong. Hugely wong on that score. Turns out more people know about my little secret than i knew. So, journals shall be made for members only from now on, to avoid a mess like tonight, again.

I'm sorry if i've acted the cunt. Seeing as i know you're going to read this, i may as well apologize here. I was upset,and it did look like you just plain out stood me up, and according to my (less than reliable) friends you did see me, turn and run. I wasn;t aware of any of this until today, and i took them at their word, and maybe i shouldn't have. I'm an idiot, i make no bones about that. I liked you, and i cocked up. Me and my insecureties. I thought the reason you bailed was cuz you just plain old didn't like me. I should have talked about that with you before i posted on the internet.

I'm sorry.