daisy

Sometimes a friendly voice does so much more than anything.

This weekend i learned an awful lot.

I learned how disgusting people can be.

I learned that other people WILL let you down. Sometimes there is no malice in that fact, sometimes there is. People are just more often than not unreliable.

I learned how i'm not much better myself. But i am better than disgusting. But i let myself down. But i also learned my lesson, and WILL NOT repeat my performance.

I learned how true friends will be there, regardless. And they are the most magical things.

I learned i am not repulsive.

Tomorrow i will put my newly learned skill of gratitude into place, and say thank you, to the boy that was nice to me, when he didn't really need to be. Second time that boy's been nice to me, for no reason. And second time he's put a smile on my face. Sometimes a strangers niceness means so much.

I learned that break ups are usually messy.

I learned that things end.

I learned that when things end, new things begin. Not always what you expect, but that's part of life, and it's exciting, when it's going well.

I learned that I'm better off walking away while i still can.

I learned that i'm better than that. I don't resort to petty insults.

I learned that i have friends that love me, a family that loves me, and i have so much more than most. Sometimes i get upset cuz i don't have many friends, or a huge family, but what i do have is amazing. And i'm lucky.

I learned that i'll be alright.

I learned that i was fixated on something that wasn't what i thought it was. And now i see it all for what it is, and how i nearly lost special people becasue of it, and i feel ashamed. I see things clearly now.

Recently i've learned that i am more than i give myself credit for. This newly learned life skill is going to come in some very handy use.

And mosty, i've learned that nothing is worth getting that low over.

I'm back.