daikokujin

I think i want ot go back into the army. I not too sure I like being a civilian anymore. I mean, is this all there is. Going to work during the week; drinking my pain away on the weekends;shagging my girlfriend inbetween. I don't know if this kinda life is for me. I kinda miss getting dirty and shot at by the indigenious peoples of wherever. I think, mostly, it's the comradery that miss. Where you can really find anywhere but in the military. It's not like I don;t have friends thatn I i've known for years. But, it's different when your with three other guys and the bombing is non stop, but, the only reason your scared is because you guys are sitting around and talking about spooky-ghost stories you expirienced as a kid. There's something about misery that unites people into this unspeakablr bond that is unfound thru anything else. I'm not going to make any rash descions just yet. But, i will think about it for a while. lates