I swear, my life drama never ends... *sigh*
So I have already moved twice in the past month and a half, and now it looks like I'm going to move again!! arghhhhh
Yeah, I mentioned how dangerous my apartment complex is (not to mention the surrounding vacinity).. I lived in Boston for 2 years smack in the middle of Chinatown and I hear more gunshots here than I ever did there... Jesus, it's crazy..
Not to mention that my roommate is getting a little out of control.. She's taken advantage of my kindness too much already.. I am a really giving person, but there is just a point where you can't help people anymore..
It's really hard to read people lately.. I thought I used to be so good at it, and now I feel like everyone is pulling me in different directions, depending on what their motivations are and it's usually that they want something from me. Even my closest friends are suspect at this moment.. I just feel like everyone in the world is trying to influence my life and life choices and I have no one to trust but myself.. Which is fucking hard as you all probably know.. Why is it that we can see other peoples' situations for what they are, and give good advice and see things rather clearly, but when it comes to ourselves it's hard as fuck to see things for what they are??!@! I wish I could just for 1 day of my life see everything for what it was, and people for what they really were..
Ahhhhh but that is part of the struggle of life.. and if we didn't have struggles, we wouldn't think and we wouldn't learn and we wouldn't grow....
So I have already moved twice in the past month and a half, and now it looks like I'm going to move again!! arghhhhh
Yeah, I mentioned how dangerous my apartment complex is (not to mention the surrounding vacinity).. I lived in Boston for 2 years smack in the middle of Chinatown and I hear more gunshots here than I ever did there... Jesus, it's crazy..
Not to mention that my roommate is getting a little out of control.. She's taken advantage of my kindness too much already.. I am a really giving person, but there is just a point where you can't help people anymore..
It's really hard to read people lately.. I thought I used to be so good at it, and now I feel like everyone is pulling me in different directions, depending on what their motivations are and it's usually that they want something from me. Even my closest friends are suspect at this moment.. I just feel like everyone in the world is trying to influence my life and life choices and I have no one to trust but myself.. Which is fucking hard as you all probably know.. Why is it that we can see other peoples' situations for what they are, and give good advice and see things rather clearly, but when it comes to ourselves it's hard as fuck to see things for what they are??!@! I wish I could just for 1 day of my life see everything for what it was, and people for what they really were..
Ahhhhh but that is part of the struggle of life.. and if we didn't have struggles, we wouldn't think and we wouldn't learn and we wouldn't grow....
VIEW 9 of 9 COMMENTS
[Edited on Oct 11, 2005 5:40AM]