Ok so I am actually going to put some effort into this journal entry.
Lately my life has been so routine. Wake up, go to work, get off, start drinking, go home, pop in movie, pass out! Day after day after day. Why can't I drive to Great America and have a day filled with laughs and adventure? Why can't I drive 20 miles to the beach and open those dusty books on my shelf? Why can't I be in a relationship with someone that likes to hike with me and my dog? Why don't I walk a block to the lake and go for a jog? Why don't I clean my room and apartment more often? Why don't I invite friends over for a dinner I slaved over all day? Why don't I sell my fucking expensive ass car and get a Vespa? And most importantly why don't I take any action on these questions?
*sigh*
I think of my future and I see myself as one of those raspy voiced older women that have a regular set daily schedule that includes waking up calling her gal pals and hitting up the same bar that they sit and drink Bud at day after day.
BOOOOORRRRING
I want to find someone, fall in love, have 2 perfect jobs, start a family, and own a beautiful house with a white picket fence and a garden that I tend to every day... And have two beautiful children that we watch grow together..
Oh man I totally just pulled out the 'Cheese' card.
I would like to believe I am one of those independent woman that chuckles at the thought of help from a man, or anyone else for that matter. Or at least one of those woman that can overcome all the hardships and difficult situations life throws at her.. That can go through her life and be completley content and satisfied with her accomplishments and not want a smidgen more.. Shit! I need someone to, in a sense, take care of me.. I need someone to be home when I get there. I need someone to be there to kiss my forehead and cuddle with when I've had a bad day or am just pms'ing. I need someone to just help with the little daily questions we have to answer... I can't even look at a menu without freaking out about what to order... I mean would it kill someone to help me make all these little decisions? I think not... But as usual when you need someone the most is when you are left the most alone.
The war within is the most powerful war of all
Lately my life has been so routine. Wake up, go to work, get off, start drinking, go home, pop in movie, pass out! Day after day after day. Why can't I drive to Great America and have a day filled with laughs and adventure? Why can't I drive 20 miles to the beach and open those dusty books on my shelf? Why can't I be in a relationship with someone that likes to hike with me and my dog? Why don't I walk a block to the lake and go for a jog? Why don't I clean my room and apartment more often? Why don't I invite friends over for a dinner I slaved over all day? Why don't I sell my fucking expensive ass car and get a Vespa? And most importantly why don't I take any action on these questions?
*sigh*
I think of my future and I see myself as one of those raspy voiced older women that have a regular set daily schedule that includes waking up calling her gal pals and hitting up the same bar that they sit and drink Bud at day after day.
BOOOOORRRRING
I want to find someone, fall in love, have 2 perfect jobs, start a family, and own a beautiful house with a white picket fence and a garden that I tend to every day... And have two beautiful children that we watch grow together..
Oh man I totally just pulled out the 'Cheese' card.
I would like to believe I am one of those independent woman that chuckles at the thought of help from a man, or anyone else for that matter. Or at least one of those woman that can overcome all the hardships and difficult situations life throws at her.. That can go through her life and be completley content and satisfied with her accomplishments and not want a smidgen more.. Shit! I need someone to, in a sense, take care of me.. I need someone to be home when I get there. I need someone to be there to kiss my forehead and cuddle with when I've had a bad day or am just pms'ing. I need someone to just help with the little daily questions we have to answer... I can't even look at a menu without freaking out about what to order... I mean would it kill someone to help me make all these little decisions? I think not... But as usual when you need someone the most is when you are left the most alone.
The war within is the most powerful war of all
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well my love. you've got the glasses to be an ole lady but your body has not one inch of saggy skin. so i think you have some time to pull that perfect life into place. relax and just know it's coming someday k! smooches.