Journal 21
Love.
Fuck it. Right in its god damned eye. I don't believe in it. How many people say they are in love? a whole fucking lot. Well if it is the end all be all of emotion how can so many people be so fucking wrong?
The truth of it is, that people aren't in love. Attraction is real. Some attraction is more than others. Nothing more. As much as I hope im wrong, as much as i like the idea, i dont see it being real.
Right now it feels like something is eating away at my fucking gut. just pure fucking hatred and anger. disgust. i dont know. but its heavy. Most people dont fucking understand it. I get mad sometimes and they think they did it. If i'm not happy something must be wrong. Well maybe im just not fucking happy? im not a happy person and i really dont see upsides to things. The way I see it is usually realistic. "eric do you think joe will fall madly in love with me?" my response is "Besides the fact that i think love is fake, he probably wont fall in love with you." They don't care to hear that. They also tell me that some day ill change my fucking mind and ill find someone who will be "just right" for me. Like outta 6 BILLION fucking people, one was born JUST for me. Even if it was true my best friend would probably fuck her.
Life has no justice, its not fair, most of your dreams will not come true, and you'll see everything crash down around you. Welcome to the the world, youll be glad when you leave it.
Love.
Fuck it. Right in its god damned eye. I don't believe in it. How many people say they are in love? a whole fucking lot. Well if it is the end all be all of emotion how can so many people be so fucking wrong?
The truth of it is, that people aren't in love. Attraction is real. Some attraction is more than others. Nothing more. As much as I hope im wrong, as much as i like the idea, i dont see it being real.
Right now it feels like something is eating away at my fucking gut. just pure fucking hatred and anger. disgust. i dont know. but its heavy. Most people dont fucking understand it. I get mad sometimes and they think they did it. If i'm not happy something must be wrong. Well maybe im just not fucking happy? im not a happy person and i really dont see upsides to things. The way I see it is usually realistic. "eric do you think joe will fall madly in love with me?" my response is "Besides the fact that i think love is fake, he probably wont fall in love with you." They don't care to hear that. They also tell me that some day ill change my fucking mind and ill find someone who will be "just right" for me. Like outta 6 BILLION fucking people, one was born JUST for me. Even if it was true my best friend would probably fuck her.
Life has no justice, its not fair, most of your dreams will not come true, and you'll see everything crash down around you. Welcome to the the world, youll be glad when you leave it.