Ok so I'm finally around to making a new journal. I am fucking pissed too. There are no good bands around where I live. I'm gonna have to drive to alabama or new orleans to catch a good show. Shit i don't even know if i can find them there.
Fuck. But I got a car now. Was given to my grandmother, who in turn...
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Fuck. But I got a car now. Was given to my grandmother, who in turn...
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thrash_cunt:
No they didnt play them for the shows i went to, but they gave us the live in LA DVD and it was pretty badass!
kennedy77:
god i love every thing that consists of sweet stuff.. i yeh 
and beer
and beerSunday Dec. 21, I turn 21.
My plans are: From 9 to 5 go into work. Get done ASAP. At clock out time change my shirt and pants in the bathroom, toss my shit in a bag and head out to meet my dad in the parking lot. Toss my shit in his truck and hit the casino. Gamble and drink for an hour or...
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My plans are: From 9 to 5 go into work. Get done ASAP. At clock out time change my shirt and pants in the bathroom, toss my shit in a bag and head out to meet my dad in the parking lot. Toss my shit in his truck and hit the casino. Gamble and drink for an hour or...
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deckwreck:
happy late birthday!!! and i suppose happy new year while i'm at it.
I used to talk politics with my family. I don't anymore. They are a simple people and, I hate to say it, but they don't understand that things are not black and white, and that things are complex. (not saying I understand everything, but at least I know that my side is not the only one ya know?)
For instance, my uncle one day at...
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hyenahell:
yeah, i think i probably was being a litte over-simplifying (is that even a fucking word?) but i think my days of political idealism and hope for any kind of egalitarian future were dashed to bits long ago. i guess i am more practical as far as politics are concerned, which perhaps is a kind of complacency. hmmm. anyway, the review went well, but i still have tons of work to finish up before the fifteenth. ug. so i'll check in later when my brain is less fried, eh?
xoxo,
-Hyena.
xoxo,
-Hyena.
hyenahell:
rawr.
I got so much shit i want to say while i'm at work but then i forget it. Maybe i should just keep a pocket notebook of subjects to talk about.
Beauty. Such a strange fucked up thing. The hotel I work at has a pool. That means girls in stages of undress. Bikinis bathing suits. Shit like that.
All the guys at work stand...
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Beauty. Such a strange fucked up thing. The hotel I work at has a pool. That means girls in stages of undress. Bikinis bathing suits. Shit like that.
All the guys at work stand...
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hyenahell:
if it makes you feel any better they probably wouldn't give Jabus the time of day either. i know that wasn't your point. but. er. meh.
personally, it's hard (for me, at least) to be with people more concerned with physical appearances than i am. i'm not saying there aren't physical qualities in men/women that turn me on (i don't think i would've joined SG if that were the case). but one of the reasons i broke off my last relationship was that the guy i was with prefered me to look... well, nice. not that he gave me ultimatums or insulted me because i didn't shave or go to the gym or whatever. but i knew it was important to him and it really bothered me. because he could have gained 500 pounds and gone bald and it wouldn't have changed the way i felt. i dunno. it was wierd. i just remember never feeling like i was good enough when i was with him. like he wanted me to be something that i couldn't ever be. oh well. i dunno what that rant had to do with yours. but while trying to remember what spurred that trail of thought, i realized i still had a five page paper due tomorrow morning. one which i've yet to start. so.
-Hyena.
personally, it's hard (for me, at least) to be with people more concerned with physical appearances than i am. i'm not saying there aren't physical qualities in men/women that turn me on (i don't think i would've joined SG if that were the case). but one of the reasons i broke off my last relationship was that the guy i was with prefered me to look... well, nice. not that he gave me ultimatums or insulted me because i didn't shave or go to the gym or whatever. but i knew it was important to him and it really bothered me. because he could have gained 500 pounds and gone bald and it wouldn't have changed the way i felt. i dunno. it was wierd. i just remember never feeling like i was good enough when i was with him. like he wanted me to be something that i couldn't ever be. oh well. i dunno what that rant had to do with yours. but while trying to remember what spurred that trail of thought, i realized i still had a five page paper due tomorrow morning. one which i've yet to start. so.
-Hyena.
deckwreck:
dude, i totally know how you feel. in addition, i have a problem where if i dont know the girl well enough to find her interesting, i'm not really attracted to her enough to ask her out. i can't stand the thought of going out on a date and sitting there with nothing to talk about...
hey but at least you dont have my other problem, which is that girls i date end up being insane. this is not an exaggeration by any extent, flux and i, as well as a few of our friends, actually have a "no more crazy bitches" pact wherein if we have to get approval from the others that the girl is not crazy. i guess this means that we are all crzy too, but eh. *shrugs*
hey but at least you dont have my other problem, which is that girls i date end up being insane. this is not an exaggeration by any extent, flux and i, as well as a few of our friends, actually have a "no more crazy bitches" pact wherein if we have to get approval from the others that the girl is not crazy. i guess this means that we are all crzy too, but eh. *shrugs*
I had dreams of squatting, of hopping trains, of living off what i could steal or beg from people, or find in dumpsters. I had dreams of freedom and a life to myself and a life on my own. I had dreams of being an artist. Dreams of creating something that was more than myself. Something to be admired. I had dreams of letting go...
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deckwreck:
hmm this quote immediately popped into my head, and its appropriate on so many levels...
"if you told me all this when i was 15 i never would have believed it"
"if you told me all this when i was 15 i never would have believed it"
hyenahell:
"...but if the me from then could see me now
i'm sure he wouldn't listen up anyhow,
he'd say 'i knew you when you used to matter'
but i've known him since- he wasn't so easily flattered."
i'm sure he wouldn't listen up anyhow,
he'd say 'i knew you when you used to matter'
but i've known him since- he wasn't so easily flattered."
Posted 2 new pictures of me drinking and me fucked up. I think that was the night that i passed out on my floor and dont remember what i had done for the last few hours. Also there are new profile questions!
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deckwreck:
awww shucks...
deckwreck:
yeah dude against me is badass, ever seen them live? best live band ever! im gonna go see em with anti flag in about a week. its kinda weird, itll be the biggest venue ive ever seen them in. and "...as the eternal cowboy" is being sold in media play and best buy now. the world is coming to an end!
oh yeah, flux is a huge against me fan too, and she is a rad chick. *plug plug plug* there is nothing better than singing along to an against me show with your best friend. end sappy comment. heh.
oh yeah, flux is a huge against me fan too, and she is a rad chick. *plug plug plug* there is nothing better than singing along to an against me show with your best friend. end sappy comment. heh.
I need some dream interpretation.
So I walk into my office. On the floor is an associate of mine dead. I look through the door and my blond secretary shouts "LOOK OUT!" All of a sudden I feel the most god awful pain in my gut. Right in my belly button. I look and it is my other associate stabbing me in the stomach. It...
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So I walk into my office. On the floor is an associate of mine dead. I look through the door and my blond secretary shouts "LOOK OUT!" All of a sudden I feel the most god awful pain in my gut. Right in my belly button. I look and it is my other associate stabbing me in the stomach. It...
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hyenahell:
rrwar.
if you find a good sense-maker out of dreams type person... send 'em my way, eh?
if not... send a compitent hitman, at least.
that failing, a cheap bottle of scotch and a hug will do.
xxx
-Hyena.
if you find a good sense-maker out of dreams type person... send 'em my way, eh?
if not... send a compitent hitman, at least.
that failing, a cheap bottle of scotch and a hug will do.
xxx
-Hyena.
hyenahell:
...oh, the 'hawk is definitely in the forseeable future. that's the main reason i'm wanting to hack off my hair. it's just not in my parent's forseeable future, if ya know what i mean...
So there I am at work. It's 9am. I sit down for preshift. That's where my boss tells us how many people are staying in the hotel, how many leaving, and how many checking in. Also what special shit we gotta clean ect.
She says, "The security cameras found a homeless person sleeping in one of the stairwells. Go find where."
I say no problem....
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She says, "The security cameras found a homeless person sleeping in one of the stairwells. Go find where."
I say no problem....
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mistersatan:
Trust me, that's not really something you want to do.
bubblesinalaska:
when i lived in a cardboard box i was always so fuckin' hammerd i wouldn't a even noticed if someone had shit in there or not.....no joke......
on the ship i work on in the gulf of alaska.....it's so rough sometimes the passengers vomit in the craziest places......usualy on the run for the head/bathroom.....lots times they only make it as far as the public drinking fountain....sick....i can't stand puke.....luckily i work in the engine room so someone else hasta clean it up......however on to the point if my story......myself and the jr enginier run and maintane the msd system....on occasion.....that's the system that processes human waste....shit, piss, galley waste, shower water, etc.....we add salt water and run it all through these big electric book cells.....salt water and electricity create clorine....so we can legally pump the shit overboard......i don't accually see the shit but just knowin' it;s there is fuckin gross.....sometimes however we gotta fix the thing......then the shit becomes a real factor......you just get imune to the thought of havin other peoples shit in the same room with you.....oh and ya get your god damn hep a and b imunizations.....
long gross story......but maybe you feel less put off by having to deal with one old drunks shit knowing i deal with 100s a peoples body waste.......
Bubs
on the ship i work on in the gulf of alaska.....it's so rough sometimes the passengers vomit in the craziest places......usualy on the run for the head/bathroom.....lots times they only make it as far as the public drinking fountain....sick....i can't stand puke.....luckily i work in the engine room so someone else hasta clean it up......however on to the point if my story......myself and the jr enginier run and maintane the msd system....on occasion.....that's the system that processes human waste....shit, piss, galley waste, shower water, etc.....we add salt water and run it all through these big electric book cells.....salt water and electricity create clorine....so we can legally pump the shit overboard......i don't accually see the shit but just knowin' it;s there is fuckin gross.....sometimes however we gotta fix the thing......then the shit becomes a real factor......you just get imune to the thought of havin other peoples shit in the same room with you.....oh and ya get your god damn hep a and b imunizations.....
long gross story......but maybe you feel less put off by having to deal with one old drunks shit knowing i deal with 100s a peoples body waste.......
Bubs Nothing I hate worse than hypocrisy. But at the same time that means I hate myself, which in a way I do. But at the same time im too concieted for my own good.
Confusing I think. Basically I feel that we as people set standards that we will never meet, and hold beliefs that we will never hold on to, or maybe its just...
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Confusing I think. Basically I feel that we as people set standards that we will never meet, and hold beliefs that we will never hold on to, or maybe its just...
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HYENA IS BACK! That's right, the only person to ever really post on my journal is back. Tis a glorious day.
I've been thinking about the punk scene a lot lately. Basically because next month i turn 21. What do old timers like me do at shows? We sit back and nod our heads drink beer sit at tables and talk about the scene 'back...
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I've been thinking about the punk scene a lot lately. Basically because next month i turn 21. What do old timers like me do at shows? We sit back and nod our heads drink beer sit at tables and talk about the scene 'back...
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Y'all Don't Wanna Step To Dis
Four sins past sainthood,
It's like I'm dying to forget
All the sleepless nights,
Lying perfectly alone and still.
I can drink 'till victory,
I'll drink to the mighty,
Drink until I die,
Or at least until the sunrise
When honesty,
As popular as a plague,
Comes to remind me
The dead's winning the race
With me going nowhere....
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Four sins past sainthood,
It's like I'm dying to forget
All the sleepless nights,
Lying perfectly alone and still.
I can drink 'till victory,
I'll drink to the mighty,
Drink until I die,
Or at least until the sunrise
When honesty,
As popular as a plague,
Comes to remind me
The dead's winning the race
With me going nowhere....
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Well it has been a long time since I wrote anything up. So I'm gonna make a little FAQ about the tattoo on my head.
Q: YOU HAVE A TATTOO ON YOUR HEAD?!
A: Um, yea.
Q: Didn't that, like, really HURT?
A: Well, not as bad as you think but it sure didn't tickle.
Q: So, like, you don't get enough attention without fucking...
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Q: YOU HAVE A TATTOO ON YOUR HEAD?!
A: Um, yea.
Q: Didn't that, like, really HURT?
A: Well, not as bad as you think but it sure didn't tickle.
Q: So, like, you don't get enough attention without fucking...
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elisabeth:
Now I've read this three times, and laugh every time. Hope that you're doing well 