Stardate 11.21.10
ever wake up with that feeling that your worst fears are gonna come to pass in the next few days and you have no choice but to accept them and blame yourself? ya. that happened. kinda made me start thinking about what id do tho. i realize that i have many backup plans for if the worst should happen and i know how to impliment them, but it gave no comfort. funny how that works. i really hated it. comletely. this whole self loathing thing aint my bag. and yesterday i thought i was doing a lil bit of gods will too. trying to help my best friend work through his relationship issues. but now, as im writing it down, i realize that i gotta take care of my own problems before helping my loved ones. i just hope im not too late to get my shit back on track.
ever wake up with that feeling that your worst fears are gonna come to pass in the next few days and you have no choice but to accept them and blame yourself? ya. that happened. kinda made me start thinking about what id do tho. i realize that i have many backup plans for if the worst should happen and i know how to impliment them, but it gave no comfort. funny how that works. i really hated it. comletely. this whole self loathing thing aint my bag. and yesterday i thought i was doing a lil bit of gods will too. trying to help my best friend work through his relationship issues. but now, as im writing it down, i realize that i gotta take care of my own problems before helping my loved ones. i just hope im not too late to get my shit back on track.