so here's a real update. something i havent done in a while.
i got my new job being a cook. things were going great then we got slow and the budget didnt call for new people getting anyhours. i had good hours that spawned down to about 10 hours a week. which means, no more money for me. (luckely tikki bought me a gift membership for here
thanks again tikki 
) so anyhow, me and the boy were supposed to get an appartment begining of next month. well that's a loss cause because i cant even pay half of my bills for this month. let alone an extra 400 dollars a month. which totally sucks because he now lives 2 hours away. that hurts the team a bit. plus the credit cards are still maxed out from when starbucks was screwing me over in hours and i had to use those for bills. i wish we were all hippies and could just trade goods and not have any money. greedy ass mother fuckin goverment assholes.
other than that. i've never been happier. which is weird cuz when i'm down i'm usually down down. and being broke, tired, hungry, and working in a 90degree kitchen that doesnt have air would hurt the team a bit. i've been slowly packing. to go where? with the boy? to phoenix with cousin amy? i dont know as of yet. but big changes are on the way. what to do. where to go. and when to do is it the only question
so cousin amy leaves next monday
this makes me extremely sad. and happy all at the same time. i'm so proud of her. she's doing something wonderful with her life and that's so rad. <3<3<3<3<3 
love her.
so that is it. i'm sitting here again, on a saturday night. by myself. still hott from after work. slowly trying to figure out how i'm going to pay for things. trying to figure out if i am able to take out a personal loan to pay all my debts off. tryin to figure out when i'm going to be able to see my boy. and trying to figure out when i'll be able to spend time with cousin amy when she's not packing or hanging out with her boyfriend.
my mind is going bonkers. and now it's time to procede with the bonkerness. big props to all that read all of this. <3
i got my new job being a cook. things were going great then we got slow and the budget didnt call for new people getting anyhours. i had good hours that spawned down to about 10 hours a week. which means, no more money for me. (luckely tikki bought me a gift membership for here
thanks again tikki ) so anyhow, me and the boy were supposed to get an appartment begining of next month. well that's a loss cause because i cant even pay half of my bills for this month. let alone an extra 400 dollars a month. which totally sucks because he now lives 2 hours away. that hurts the team a bit. plus the credit cards are still maxed out from when starbucks was screwing me over in hours and i had to use those for bills. i wish we were all hippies and could just trade goods and not have any money. greedy ass mother fuckin goverment assholes.
other than that. i've never been happier. which is weird cuz when i'm down i'm usually down down. and being broke, tired, hungry, and working in a 90degree kitchen that doesnt have air would hurt the team a bit. i've been slowly packing. to go where? with the boy? to phoenix with cousin amy? i dont know as of yet. but big changes are on the way. what to do. where to go. and when to do is it the only question
so cousin amy leaves next monday
this makes me extremely sad. and happy all at the same time. i'm so proud of her. she's doing something wonderful with her life and that's so rad. <3<3<3<3<3 love her.
so that is it. i'm sitting here again, on a saturday night. by myself. still hott from after work. slowly trying to figure out how i'm going to pay for things. trying to figure out if i am able to take out a personal loan to pay all my debts off. tryin to figure out when i'm going to be able to see my boy. and trying to figure out when i'll be able to spend time with cousin amy when she's not packing or hanging out with her boyfriend.
my mind is going bonkers. and now it's time to procede with the bonkerness. big props to all that read all of this. <3