cypher

i don't understand
what destiny's planned
i'm starting to grasp
what is in my own hands
i don't claim to know
where my holiness goes
i just know that I like
what is starting to show

when we kiss we speak as one.
with a single breath this world is gone.


i've nearly stopped enjoying this.
waxing & waning.
people grow tired of divided loyalties..especially when they want you all to themselves.
friends come and go. new faces replace old.
you can get lost. you can fall in love.
there is only one of me...at times less than that.
and it's...
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Can you imagine that
an itch too sensitive to scratch
the light that falls through the cracks
an insect too delicate to catch
I hear the endless murmur
every blade of grass that shivers in the breeze
and the sound that comes to carry me
across the land and over the sea

...
love someone
...

despair.desire.longing.

Have you ever had the feeling
That the world's gone and left you behind
Have you ever had the feeling
That you're that close to loosing your mind
You look around each corner
Hoping that she's there
You try to play it cool perhaps
Pretend that you don't care
But it doesn't do a bit of good
You got to seek 'til you find...
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despair.desire.longing.

do you ever feel the need for a metamorphosis?
like you could rip to shreds who you are/have been and start actualizing the person you desire to be?
what does it take to motivate one to do such a thing?
love? inertia sickness? a death? something as simple as a song sometimes?
how do you wake up when you were born a sleeper?

despair desire longing
silently and understating it all
the ball in my stomach
from just dreaming about U
and i am scared
i should be
it matters to me

good lord do i feel unpopular today.

i wish i had some devilled eggs.

and yet i am in a pretty good mood.

i am falling.

- let go of your need for control.
- accept change and vulnerability for it is the fear of change and of being vulnerable that prevents us from loving.
- we struggle with the pain of love because we continue to love the pain.
- learn to see love from a place of abundance and not a place of scarcity.
- get back to that...
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let go of your need for control.
accept change and vulnerability for it is the fear of change and of being vulnerable that prevents us from loving.
we struggle with the pain of love because we continue to love pain.
see love from a place of abundance and not a place of scarcity.
love yourself.

i hate emotions.
i guess i'd better get used to them.
if i want to be human.
and stuff like that.

booo.

sometimes.
i am an ass.
i am mr. funnyguy.
i am a retard.
i am a friend.
i am a lover.
i am a geek.
i am a crush.
i am a disappointment.
i am a man.