cybertammy

I saw my ex for the first time in a week and a half. He shaved off all of his curly hair. I didn't even recognize him. When I finally did I said hi. I just kept staring at his face and looking for the person I knew. It's so sad when you break up with someone how they go from you best friend to nobody. It kills me.

I feel like he's died... to me at least, he has. I realize I will not know him in a year. I will most likely never see him again. I can't call him when something happens to me, I don't hear about his days.

Now I feel really dead too.

I don't know what to do. When I was really depressed last year and I would take a really long hot shower and just cry where no one could hear. I think I'll do that when my roomie gets out of the shower.