Well no new news. I haven't heard much back from that girl Vee all week. 
I'm starting to think i WAS stood up I hate this. I have been stood up for more dates than actual dates i have been out on (HS dating doesn't count lol) I have more female friends than male and none of them can understand how i get stood up so often. My last count. in the last 2 years. I have been stood up with little or no explaination..... at least 12 times. Thats not counting when a girl would stand me up and then give me an excuse and make plans for a redo on the date and stood me up.... it just fucking pisses me off. WHY? why the fuck do i get stood up so often? Hell some of them i have straight out ASKED why and of course i have never gotten a fucking answer.............
So outside of my bitching nothing major in life has happened. I haven't gotten to see Dark Knight yet cause of work but i plan on seeing it tomorrow during the day so there shouldn't be to much of a problem with crowds or selling out.
So....... I am trying to ... i guess figure out something in not just my life but in the world in general............. As a few of you may know. I am pretty much an Athiest. No belief in a "God" or a higher power or anything. Well .... I lately have decided i want to try to understand the belief in god/a higher power. Now i am not talking about the history of religion and god and what not cause i know enough of it and how it has evolved into what it is today. I want to know HOW someone believes in god? What its like? Why? all of that and more.
I try to look into it internally and understand it and even TRY to believe but.... it just doesn't make sense. I can't understand the true internal logic of it. It just doesn't fit or work out in my head.
I'm starting to think i WAS stood up I hate this. I have been stood up for more dates than actual dates i have been out on (HS dating doesn't count lol) I have more female friends than male and none of them can understand how i get stood up so often. My last count. in the last 2 years. I have been stood up with little or no explaination..... at least 12 times. Thats not counting when a girl would stand me up and then give me an excuse and make plans for a redo on the date and stood me up.... it just fucking pisses me off. WHY? why the fuck do i get stood up so often? Hell some of them i have straight out ASKED why and of course i have never gotten a fucking answer.............
So outside of my bitching nothing major in life has happened. I haven't gotten to see Dark Knight yet cause of work but i plan on seeing it tomorrow during the day so there shouldn't be to much of a problem with crowds or selling out.
So....... I am trying to ... i guess figure out something in not just my life but in the world in general............. As a few of you may know. I am pretty much an Athiest. No belief in a "God" or a higher power or anything. Well .... I lately have decided i want to try to understand the belief in god/a higher power. Now i am not talking about the history of religion and god and what not cause i know enough of it and how it has evolved into what it is today. I want to know HOW someone believes in god? What its like? Why? all of that and more.
I try to look into it internally and understand it and even TRY to believe but.... it just doesn't make sense. I can't understand the true internal logic of it. It just doesn't fit or work out in my head.
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Now for your women problem. I'm in the same boat just a different sea. I don't get stood up, just cheated on after me and said girl become a couple. Meh! If they don't like you for whatever reason, you're most likely better off without them.
I think it will be a long time before I get to see that movie.
Well I just don't see how there can not be some kind of power out there, things are just way to complicated and the world is just to amazing of a place for things to just kind of happen, it would take way to long for me to write about and you probable would not even read it all. Being spiritual is a very beautiful thing. And I'm sure you don't know much about my religion, I'm not a christen.