This morning as we were waking up and cuddling, my boyfriend told me he can't wait until he gets to wake up next to me every morning. I was floored and speechless. All I could do was hug him harder and kiss him. He laughed and asked if it was a deal. I said yes.
It's strange because he has been one to not plan ahead when it came to relationships, even ours. I had told him once, when we first dated, that I loved him so much I'd say 'yes'. And I meant it in the most lighthearted and silly way. I wasn't hinting or anything, mostly because we hadn't been together long anyways. It sent him into a panic. I tried to clarify that I wasn't thinking about marriage nor implying anything. Several months later when he broke up with me, it was part of the reason. He thought we were in different places when it came to that and it wasn't fair to me. There were other reasons too but I'm not going back into them [I did write a blog when he broke up with me, reference that if you wish].
When we got back together it was a surprise to me and I was so happy. I was happy because not only did I have him back as my love but also his family, his friends. We stayed friends and built a lovely friendship which helped us to rebuild our romantic relationships. He told me he knows what he wants now, and that is to be with me. He made a promise to me last week and told me to hold him to it, but it will take close to a year before he can make due on it. He's had a problem with alcohol in the past and has been doing very well but last Friday he got drunk and was supposed to come over after I got off work but it got delayed until he sobered up. He let himself down for drinking to excess and it affected me negatively and that's what hurt him most. So he made a promise that whatever money he would normally spend on alcohol, whether it be for one drink or a whole bottle, he is going to save it for a gift for me. But it may take a year. I have no clue what it is and when I told him I was super curious he simply said 'you'll see'.
I'm just incredibly happy that he wants to spend everyday with me, wake up next to me and be my best friend and my boyfriend. He's so wonderful.
